There comes a time....

There comes a time when you know that something has got to change. The seasons are changing and so are the people around you. Sometimes even your groups of friends change and maybe even your boyfriend or girlfriend. The question is, is are you going to welcome the change? Are you going to welcome the unfamiliar? I know personally for myself I have gone through lots and tuns of changes in the last four years of my life, some for the better and some for the worse. I did welcome the changes, and I was open-minded, but at the end I found someone I didn't know. See if you let to many things change you, then your going to wind up being a completely different person, somebody you don't even recognize as yourself. And I noticed the changes in myself and I thought about it. The conclusion I came to was that I was already good with the person that I had once been. So when making a change I realize that I have to ask myself a couple questions. One : Is this going to better my life or make it worse? If I make this choice what are some of the possible out comes? When I make this choice am I doing it for myself or to please others. These are all questions that I should have thought about way way back when I first started making huge decisions. I know when I was little the hardest decision for me was deciding which color of crayon should I use to color with. Today it is what do I want to be, what profession do I want? All I'm saying is that there are good changes and there are bad ones. Before you make your changes you need to look at all the factors and answer all the questions. If you don't you could end up in a bad position or a twisted mess, and trust me you will wish you would have thought harder.
Today Im going to add random poems and quotes in here, I want to mix up things a little bit!

* "An open mind is good.................. so is an open window, but we keep a screen over it to keep all of the bugs out.
~This one is a good one to put in here today it relates to everything that I just talked about!

* "When my last teardrop falls, I will stand tall, And keep all our memories, And all of what used to be.

* "Tears are unspoken words."

* "Where honor dies, Defeat lies."

* " The greatest power is the power of goodbye!"

* "What happens if you get scared to death....twice?"

* "Cry your heart out, let it all go. Cause remember, after every tear, comes a rainbow!"

* "An error isn't a mistake until you refuse to correct it."

* "I climbed up the door and opened the stairs,S aid my pajamas and put on my prayers, Then I turned off the bed and crawled into the light, All becuz you kissed me goodnight! Next morning I woke up and scrambled my shoes, Picked up my eggs and toasted the news, I couldn't tell my left from right, All becuz you kissed me goodnight! That evening at last I felt normal again, So I picked up my mother and called the phone, I spoke to the puppy and threw Dad a bone, Even at midnight the sun was still bright, All becuz you kissed me goodnight!"

* "Blind: How can I be so blind....To think that you made up your mind....Why am I so unconscious....To think to you, I'm so lucious....Am I that mislead....To think you actually meant what you said....How did I get myself into this mess....I thought it would be for the best....My point is... You don't realize how deep you get....Until you regret the day you met.."

Wow, I really love quotes and poems. They always make me feel happy even on the days when I am not. I would have to say that words put together, that actually mean something and are of great importance mean the world to me and are my favortie thing to read, write, and study! Writing poems and quotes are not just something I do in my free time because I have nothing else to do, no they're much more than that. They are my Passion!

A little post here and there

For me summer is peaking around the corner and personally I am stoked. High school will be done and out of the way for me in a couple months and I will be oonto the next chapter of my life. I've been waiting for years for this, the chance to prove and actually be an adult! I've already moved out, I have a job (maybe not the worlds best, but hey it's a job), I got a car. Now all I need to do is to figure out what college I'm going to go to, and what I want to be. I know what I want to be but somehow I feel that I won't get the chance and unfortunetly that sucks. I only say that I won't have the chance because I could be going away. Away to help this wonderful country that we have all come to love. Yea sounds like bull I know I wouldn't believe it either, but really I might do that!
Anyway this summer I plan to take some sort of a vacation, go camping, hang out with all my friends, and spend a lot of time by the pool. Hopefully I'll get to spend a lot of time with my good friend Jeremy. Over all I hope to have a really chill summer.

The Final Change

I looked back over all my blogs that I have written, as a whole and I noticed that quite often and most of the time I write about changes and making life changing decisions. And after seeing that I took a second to think about if thats all I could write about...in the end yes was my answer. See life is about changes and decisions, that's what it's all about in fact. Everyday you get up and you have to decide: what am I going to wear to do, what am I going to do today? Even though these are ittle decisions to be made they are still life changing decisions none the less. And then often times your have to make huge, giganic decisions, decisions that will definately have a huge impact on your life. Personally I hate having to make decisions...it's definately not my strong suit, but right now I'm at a point in my life were I'm going to be making a lot of decisions. Like where should I go to college, what classes should I take, where should I move to? These are such mind boggling questions. Today I have to make a final change in my life, it's going to be probably one of the hardest decisions I'll ever have to make, but it needs to be done. And once the deed is done my life will be changed forever.
Today I felt like writing quotes of happiness due to the fact that all things considered I am a very happy girl. I have lots of friends and lots of love in my life, and that's all I really ask for! All that means so much for me.

* "Love me if u wantLike me, thats fineBut if i turn u downTake a numba and get in line."

* "you can always start liking someone over and over again**~~~** but you can never stop loving someone."

* "A sharp tongue can slit its own throat."

* "Good TimesBring Back Good Memories."

* "Do not go where the path may lead.Instead go where there is no path and leave a trail

* "I do it because I can**I can because I want to**I want to because you said I couldn't."

* "If u try to chase two rabbits at once you'll end up losing them both."
Yea.......

* "A little cow wonders......"what will become of me with a name like patty?"

* "Pedestrian is just another word for speedbump!"

And there it is 9 wonderful quotes that can make a persons day, just kidding but maybe who knows. All I know is 3 things: 1. Im addicted to quotes. 2. Im addicted to poems. 3. Im addicted to writing quotes and poems. It's the sad truth!

"Im at war with the love of my life"

Have you ever had to make way to many decisions in a short period of time? Have you ever felt like you couldn't make the decision? Have you felt like you had to give up because you couldn't make that decision? And when trying to make the decision, you found yourself stuck, lost and confused? Well I feel like that right now unfortunetly and it sucks so bad. The only thing getting me through it, is that I know whatever decision I make the world still spins and the world don't end. I know that I'm going to have to make a lot of huge decisions in my life, life changing decisions in fact. And I know I'm not going to want to make a lot of them, but I just continue to hope for the best.
Anyway today I'm going to put some love poems in here, one because I haven't put up that much poetry lately and two because I'm in a loving mood! Soo here we are:

* "There are so many words I cannot say, when I look into your eyes. I want to be able to tell you one day, but I'm left speechless every time that I try.
You must have stumbled across the key, and discovered so much more. You found a hidden place in me, you found my heart and opened the door. And I cried in pain of losing my dear friend.
Will it ever be the same again? If it passes will it be the end? I realized it was worth so much, as I lie in bed that night. So I allowed my soul to be touched, without even putting up a fight. Are my eyes deceiving me, when I see you standing there? Are you playing games, just to prove I care?
You speak my name in a prelude, in a reference to love, with such loving attitude, as if it were a message from above. With the palms of your hands pressed firmly against mine, a white doves lands, and the sun begins to shine.
Someday I will see, though that day has not come yet. You'll say you love me, but will you ever forget? If that happens and my spirit dies, if my emotions drop, will you want to hold me when I cry? Or will the love just suddenly stop? We can't expect to fall in love and never cry.
You'll stay and play your part, but after the beauty starts to die, will your footprints still be on my heart? Though it would be hard to say goodbye, your friend I'll always be, as long as we always try, to keep the friendship between you and me.
The letter I will not send will casually inquire, how could you have brought it to an end? I was your one desire. After this life is over, you'll be one person I know I'll miss.
It'll be too late to start over, and so I leave you with this... I'll hold you for a lifetime, if you'll just hold my hand. We could have a wonderful time, in the days we have not yet planned."
By: B.K. + A.G.
* "I never knew there would be a better tomorrow, But you've come into my life and taken away all my sorrow. My days of sadness are a thing of the past, Because I have found true love at last. My days of emptiness are gone for good, Because you fill a void in my heart that you should. You've opened a window, You've shown me the light, And my love for you will continue to burn bright."
By: Yvonne Warren
* "On the wings of an eagle, My love for you flies. Soaring higher and higher, And touching the skies. I reached up above, And pulled a star from the sky. To place it within, Your precious minds eye. To dwell there forever, As my love for you. On the wings of our love, Enduring and true. I honor you my darling, With all that I am. Please darling please, Will you be my man? There are so many things, My heart wants to say. I love you sweetheart, There is no other way."
By: Jo'Lene Tover
* "A gentle brush of his fingers, Sending shivers down my spine. In the love I see in his eyes, Is a love that equals mine. He greets me with a smile, And leaves me with a kiss. If he were to ever leave me, I couldn't imagine what I'd miss. Maybe it's his touch, Or the way he makes me feel.
But whatever it is, I'm head over heels."
By: Danyka A. Hoover

And there you have it, true, deep, love poems!

Tragedy Hits Home

Today is going to be a little bit different, I'm not going to put up just any old quotes today. My qoutes arn't going to be about happiness or love. My quotes are going to be rather sad or emotional, I don't really know how to word it. See a boy that I went to middle school with died on Tuesday the 10th, he was three months shy of graduation, he had a girlfriend, lots of friends, and lots of family. My condolenses go out to his family. Tyler Toll was a nice kid, he was pretty quiet from what I knew about him. Now I haven't seen him in years, but that doesn't change the fact that I know him. He was an eighteen year old boy, just like me, except I'm a girl, but any kid that dies at such a young age is a very devistating expeirence. I was at work when my mom called and told me that tyler had pssed away. It's kind of an out of body expeirence when you find out someone you know has died. The first thing that runs through your head is wow is he actually gone? How could a kid so young die? Who would allow a kid this young to die? You just have all these why's fill your head. You even have second thoughts about it not being real, I mean why would you wan something like this to be real. Your mind won't let it. And then eventually it will hit you that he's gone and it's overwhelming. Can you tell that I've gone through quite a few deaths in my life? Truth be told my step father died, and we were pretty close, closer than me and my actual father. I was completely devastated, and I still am. I think about him everyday. I don't understand why some of the best people in life have to die, but the good thing out of it is that they're going to a better place. I mean what else do I have to believe, I can only help for the best for the people that leave this world. There has to be something better out there; A place where no one hurts, feels pain, or cries. There has to be a place of complete happiness I truely believe that!

I dedicate this post to Tyler Toll and all his loved ones! And also to every person who has ever lost somebody so precious to them!

Blog About Bloging About Bloging

Yesterday we were asked to blog about blogging. What we may or may not like about blogging? Why we blog? What bloging actually means? What we think about blogging? And how things are different now then when we first started blogging? So I guess I will start with the first question and work my way through, maybe you can get to know me even just a little bit more through my answers.
Personally as a person I love to blog. Before I was told to blog for my class however I did not. Not cause I didn't want to blog or anything but because I didn't really know anything about it or how to even set it up.When we were given the assignment to start blogging however I was not dissapointed or angry about it. I welcomed the opportunity to blog and have like my own online journal. I have always been one to love any type of writing whether in school or on my own. Writing is who I am, and if we didn't have words we wouldn't have anything at all. So all in all I thought that blogging was a tremendous idea, especially for me. I rather write all my feelings and thoughts onto the internet into my own little blog rather sit around and writing in a journal or diary.
The reason why we blog, or what I've gotten out of it, is so that we build up our writing skills. And maybe use bigger words, you know broaden our horizons. And I would have to agree that blogging has helped me to type faster and to increase the amounts or harder words that use. I personally blog to put how I feel out there and show my love for poetry and writing. Blogging has been such a positive expeirence for me.
What does blogging mean? The definition answer for it is: "an online diary; a personal chronological log of thoughts published on a web page." Blogs are typically updated daily; and they usually reflect the personality of the blogger. A lot of people, in their blogs, post personal expeirences about themselves and sometimes even their favorite hobbies.
I think blogging is a good idea. It gives us kids and even adults a chance to say what ever you need to say or get out whatever emotion you need to get out. You can right whatever you want to and no one can really critisize you for it because they don't know you. You can tell the whole world about whatever you want and you know that it's all going to be okay. It's harder to tell someone you know something, than rather someone you don't know. Well at least in my opinion.
When I first started blogging I really didn't know what to expect or how much information about myself I should give out. And I didn't really get the whole idea of blogging, I didn't think that I should tell anybody about myself because I thought that somehow it would get back to me. You know what though, as I went along blogging I knew that I didn't have to talk about myself directly but that people could find out what kind of person I was through my writing and how I took my approaches and different topics. People can really see the true you through your writings and your beliefs!

So Sick

It's been a moment since I've writen but I've had quite a bit of stuff going down in my. Have you ever woke up one morning and you feel like a new person , like everything around you is changing not neccessarily for the bad nor the good, but you get the feeling that things are going to be different from that momet on. Well about two weeks ago this happened to me. I felt like a new person like something new came over me. For the longest time I have been, I guess you could say trying to be something I'm not and I've been trying to get back to the true me. And the other day I woke up and I felt like that perso again, the person I once was and I have even been acting like her. And I have been super proud that I found that girl in me again. I'm sure everybody can relate.