It's all over

Things to me seem to be straightening themselves out. I know that I right about decisions and changes a lot, but things have changed I won't be talking so much about that after I mention this. My decisions sorted themselves out by themselves, cause sometimes you can't make them, and you just have to give time to let them sort out themselves. Now I can live my life, I know I'll continue to make hard decisions as I grow up, but these last six months my brain has been packed full of them and Its not anymore. Anyway graduation is in a little over a month and Im super excited, I'm starting the next chapter of my life! I have some good friends and a good boyfriend. Sure I've lost some good ones along the way but that's a way of life and that's what happens as you grow up. Anyway this summer I plan to check out some colleges, and check out a couple different places to live, I was thinking maybe North Carolina. My family is moving down there this summer, and I just might go with and hit up a college over there. My education Is very important to me, I lost sight of that for awhile, but now more than ever I know that it is. I have so many things I want to do, and so many things that I want to see in this world. And I figure the only way that will happen is if I have a good job and make descent money. I'm very excited for my future at this point, I can't wait to see what happens, I can't wait to see the job I get, and I can't wait to see who I marry.
Anyway today there will definately be some poems and quotes posted up in here; poems and quotes that consist of happiness. Today is a new day, and for me it's a new start and I feel really good about that. So hopefully the quotes and poems I put in here can help you find happiness just like me.

Poems

* "If love were simple why are there break-ups? If friends are supposed to be true, why do some lie? If guys are supposed to love, why are there the one's that break your heart? Everyone says things are simple then there's that one that makes it hard."
~ This one may not be the happiest, but the thing is that I can relate to it!

* "When u kissed me my whole body shook, I didnt know what to do, I didnt know where to look, I gently closed my eyes and put my hands on ur face, and I felt my heart start to race, we looked at each other and smiled in bliss, because u were my first real kiss."

* "We laughed & talked & had so much fun, but soon we will have none, we were such good friends & that u can't deny, but now we will have to say goodbye, I will miss u very much, even if I will still see u, because I know we won't be like we used to, you will go your way & I will go mine but I will think about you all the time."
I dedicate this poem to a special someone: JD

* "Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They aren't fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them. Disagree with them. Glorify or Villify them. But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do!"

* " Inside a mind there is a story that awaits, a hurt that cant be described. Inside a mind there are thousands of memories, memories that are ancient, magical. Inside a mind there are screams of anger from the pain of a break up. Inside a mind there are favorites, enemies and love."

Quotes

*"What if finding the love of your life meant changing the life you love?"
~True story in my life!"

* "Once upon a time.....I cared."

* "Never Let The Fear Of Stiking Out Keep You From PLaying The Game!"

My Friends,My Family, My Education, My Job, and My Future!

My whole life friends and family have been the one thing that have meant the most to me! I take pride in every firend that I own and I love them dearly, and I would probably do anything for them and I do mean anything! And that's were I've always had a problem. I'll do anything to make another person happy even if it means hurting myself or putting my true feeling on the matter aside. As long as my friends are happy shouldn't I be to? And yea making my friends happy does bring me a huge joy, but I only get that joy for a couple of seconds, what about the long run? All this goes the same for my family. I would die for my family and I'm sure there are others that feel the same exact way about there family.
When I was little and in middle school I did not much care for/or about my grades and education. When I got to high school I started ed to care more, but not for the reasons that you might think. See I met this wonderful person who was excellent in school, he was always getting A's in everything, and seeing him succeed made me want to be just like him. I was proud of him and envious of him at the same time. For me school was harder I didn't have natural talents in school as far as homework goes. So it was nice to have someone to look up to and have somebody that made me strive to be better! Now education is very important to me, I can't stress enough about it, what college am I going to? What do I want to master in? What will it take? I want to get a wonderful job, a job that will keep me out of debt and keep me on my toes, a job that will support a family and much more. I can't wait to see what my future holds!

Tattoo Time...

Okay so today is going to be a little bit different from other days. Today I'm going to be looking at tattoos, lots of tattoos. See for the longest time now I've been wanting to get a tattoo but I'm not the kind of person that goes out for a spontaneous tattoo. I want my tattoo to stand for something and mean something important in my life. So I've been searching the internet and books for the perfect tattoo. And I've came up with various ideas of what I would like and where I would like to put them. So here's my list, and no I'm not going to get all of them. I just have to decide which one I am going to get.

My Tattoo List:

On my back between my two collar bones I would like to put a purplish-pink butterfly, and maybe put the word beautiful underneathe that, anyway I don't want something huge. I want it to be pretty small and petite.

On the back of my neck I would like to put a Japanese simble for strength, this is because I've wanted this tattoo for the last four years of my life, this word is the word I live by, if you don't have mind, body, and soul strength you will get ripped apart and eaten.

Down my side below my arm I would live to put a quote, I'm not quite sure which quote I want yet but it looks very pretty on a girl. And as you already know i'm a big fan of quotes and poems, so it would fit me.

I would also like to maybe put a quote on my right side of my waist, and have it rap around my hip a little bit, one of my girl friends has a cute quote right there so that's were I got the idea. It won't be a huge poetry passage or anything but just a few simple meaningful words.

I also thought about getting one between my two shoulders on the middle of my back, but for that one I have no clue what's so ever that I would put there. I guess I thoought about putting the butterfly there too, but Idk.

And last but not least I thought about getting a tramp stap, but a very unique pretty one, not some "I got drunk and don't know how it got there tattoo. My tramp stamp to would have to have meaning behind.

So as you can tell I completely want my tattoo to be on the upper half of my body. I quess I don't find lower tattoos sexy, or pretty for that matter. Anyway so I need help figuring this out, I'm sure i'll figure it out soon but it's been hard, lol.

http://www.kanjisymbol.net/search/Beautiful.html

There comes a time....

There comes a time when you know that something has got to change. The seasons are changing and so are the people around you. Sometimes even your groups of friends change and maybe even your boyfriend or girlfriend. The question is, is are you going to welcome the change? Are you going to welcome the unfamiliar? I know personally for myself I have gone through lots and tuns of changes in the last four years of my life, some for the better and some for the worse. I did welcome the changes, and I was open-minded, but at the end I found someone I didn't know. See if you let to many things change you, then your going to wind up being a completely different person, somebody you don't even recognize as yourself. And I noticed the changes in myself and I thought about it. The conclusion I came to was that I was already good with the person that I had once been. So when making a change I realize that I have to ask myself a couple questions. One : Is this going to better my life or make it worse? If I make this choice what are some of the possible out comes? When I make this choice am I doing it for myself or to please others. These are all questions that I should have thought about way way back when I first started making huge decisions. I know when I was little the hardest decision for me was deciding which color of crayon should I use to color with. Today it is what do I want to be, what profession do I want? All I'm saying is that there are good changes and there are bad ones. Before you make your changes you need to look at all the factors and answer all the questions. If you don't you could end up in a bad position or a twisted mess, and trust me you will wish you would have thought harder.
Today Im going to add random poems and quotes in here, I want to mix up things a little bit!

* "An open mind is good.................. so is an open window, but we keep a screen over it to keep all of the bugs out.
~This one is a good one to put in here today it relates to everything that I just talked about!

* "When my last teardrop falls, I will stand tall, And keep all our memories, And all of what used to be.

* "Tears are unspoken words."

* "Where honor dies, Defeat lies."

* " The greatest power is the power of goodbye!"

* "What happens if you get scared to death....twice?"

* "Cry your heart out, let it all go. Cause remember, after every tear, comes a rainbow!"

* "An error isn't a mistake until you refuse to correct it."

* "I climbed up the door and opened the stairs,S aid my pajamas and put on my prayers, Then I turned off the bed and crawled into the light, All becuz you kissed me goodnight! Next morning I woke up and scrambled my shoes, Picked up my eggs and toasted the news, I couldn't tell my left from right, All becuz you kissed me goodnight! That evening at last I felt normal again, So I picked up my mother and called the phone, I spoke to the puppy and threw Dad a bone, Even at midnight the sun was still bright, All becuz you kissed me goodnight!"

* "Blind: How can I be so blind....To think that you made up your mind....Why am I so unconscious....To think to you, I'm so lucious....Am I that mislead....To think you actually meant what you said....How did I get myself into this mess....I thought it would be for the best....My point is... You don't realize how deep you get....Until you regret the day you met.."

Wow, I really love quotes and poems. They always make me feel happy even on the days when I am not. I would have to say that words put together, that actually mean something and are of great importance mean the world to me and are my favortie thing to read, write, and study! Writing poems and quotes are not just something I do in my free time because I have nothing else to do, no they're much more than that. They are my Passion!

A little post here and there

For me summer is peaking around the corner and personally I am stoked. High school will be done and out of the way for me in a couple months and I will be oonto the next chapter of my life. I've been waiting for years for this, the chance to prove and actually be an adult! I've already moved out, I have a job (maybe not the worlds best, but hey it's a job), I got a car. Now all I need to do is to figure out what college I'm going to go to, and what I want to be. I know what I want to be but somehow I feel that I won't get the chance and unfortunetly that sucks. I only say that I won't have the chance because I could be going away. Away to help this wonderful country that we have all come to love. Yea sounds like bull I know I wouldn't believe it either, but really I might do that!
Anyway this summer I plan to take some sort of a vacation, go camping, hang out with all my friends, and spend a lot of time by the pool. Hopefully I'll get to spend a lot of time with my good friend Jeremy. Over all I hope to have a really chill summer.

The Final Change

I looked back over all my blogs that I have written, as a whole and I noticed that quite often and most of the time I write about changes and making life changing decisions. And after seeing that I took a second to think about if thats all I could write about...in the end yes was my answer. See life is about changes and decisions, that's what it's all about in fact. Everyday you get up and you have to decide: what am I going to wear to do, what am I going to do today? Even though these are ittle decisions to be made they are still life changing decisions none the less. And then often times your have to make huge, giganic decisions, decisions that will definately have a huge impact on your life. Personally I hate having to make decisions...it's definately not my strong suit, but right now I'm at a point in my life were I'm going to be making a lot of decisions. Like where should I go to college, what classes should I take, where should I move to? These are such mind boggling questions. Today I have to make a final change in my life, it's going to be probably one of the hardest decisions I'll ever have to make, but it needs to be done. And once the deed is done my life will be changed forever.
Today I felt like writing quotes of happiness due to the fact that all things considered I am a very happy girl. I have lots of friends and lots of love in my life, and that's all I really ask for! All that means so much for me.

* "Love me if u wantLike me, thats fineBut if i turn u downTake a numba and get in line."

* "you can always start liking someone over and over again**~~~** but you can never stop loving someone."

* "A sharp tongue can slit its own throat."

* "Good TimesBring Back Good Memories."

* "Do not go where the path may lead.Instead go where there is no path and leave a trail

* "I do it because I can**I can because I want to**I want to because you said I couldn't."

* "If u try to chase two rabbits at once you'll end up losing them both."
Yea.......

* "A little cow wonders......"what will become of me with a name like patty?"

* "Pedestrian is just another word for speedbump!"

And there it is 9 wonderful quotes that can make a persons day, just kidding but maybe who knows. All I know is 3 things: 1. Im addicted to quotes. 2. Im addicted to poems. 3. Im addicted to writing quotes and poems. It's the sad truth!

"Im at war with the love of my life"

Have you ever had to make way to many decisions in a short period of time? Have you ever felt like you couldn't make the decision? Have you felt like you had to give up because you couldn't make that decision? And when trying to make the decision, you found yourself stuck, lost and confused? Well I feel like that right now unfortunetly and it sucks so bad. The only thing getting me through it, is that I know whatever decision I make the world still spins and the world don't end. I know that I'm going to have to make a lot of huge decisions in my life, life changing decisions in fact. And I know I'm not going to want to make a lot of them, but I just continue to hope for the best.
Anyway today I'm going to put some love poems in here, one because I haven't put up that much poetry lately and two because I'm in a loving mood! Soo here we are:

* "There are so many words I cannot say, when I look into your eyes. I want to be able to tell you one day, but I'm left speechless every time that I try.
You must have stumbled across the key, and discovered so much more. You found a hidden place in me, you found my heart and opened the door. And I cried in pain of losing my dear friend.
Will it ever be the same again? If it passes will it be the end? I realized it was worth so much, as I lie in bed that night. So I allowed my soul to be touched, without even putting up a fight. Are my eyes deceiving me, when I see you standing there? Are you playing games, just to prove I care?
You speak my name in a prelude, in a reference to love, with such loving attitude, as if it were a message from above. With the palms of your hands pressed firmly against mine, a white doves lands, and the sun begins to shine.
Someday I will see, though that day has not come yet. You'll say you love me, but will you ever forget? If that happens and my spirit dies, if my emotions drop, will you want to hold me when I cry? Or will the love just suddenly stop? We can't expect to fall in love and never cry.
You'll stay and play your part, but after the beauty starts to die, will your footprints still be on my heart? Though it would be hard to say goodbye, your friend I'll always be, as long as we always try, to keep the friendship between you and me.
The letter I will not send will casually inquire, how could you have brought it to an end? I was your one desire. After this life is over, you'll be one person I know I'll miss.
It'll be too late to start over, and so I leave you with this... I'll hold you for a lifetime, if you'll just hold my hand. We could have a wonderful time, in the days we have not yet planned."
By: B.K. + A.G.
* "I never knew there would be a better tomorrow, But you've come into my life and taken away all my sorrow. My days of sadness are a thing of the past, Because I have found true love at last. My days of emptiness are gone for good, Because you fill a void in my heart that you should. You've opened a window, You've shown me the light, And my love for you will continue to burn bright."
By: Yvonne Warren
* "On the wings of an eagle, My love for you flies. Soaring higher and higher, And touching the skies. I reached up above, And pulled a star from the sky. To place it within, Your precious minds eye. To dwell there forever, As my love for you. On the wings of our love, Enduring and true. I honor you my darling, With all that I am. Please darling please, Will you be my man? There are so many things, My heart wants to say. I love you sweetheart, There is no other way."
By: Jo'Lene Tover
* "A gentle brush of his fingers, Sending shivers down my spine. In the love I see in his eyes, Is a love that equals mine. He greets me with a smile, And leaves me with a kiss. If he were to ever leave me, I couldn't imagine what I'd miss. Maybe it's his touch, Or the way he makes me feel.
But whatever it is, I'm head over heels."
By: Danyka A. Hoover

And there you have it, true, deep, love poems!