Today is going to be a little bit different, I'm not going to put up just any old quotes today. My qoutes arn't going to be about happiness or love. My quotes are going to be rather sad or emotional, I don't really know how to word it. See a boy that I went to middle school with died on Tuesday the 10th, he was three months shy of graduation, he had a girlfriend, lots of friends, and lots of family. My condolenses go out to his family. Tyler Toll was a nice kid, he was pretty quiet from what I knew about him. Now I haven't seen him in years, but that doesn't change the fact that I know him. He was an eighteen year old boy, just like me, except I'm a girl, but any kid that dies at such a young age is a very devistating expeirence. I was at work when my mom called and told me that tyler had pssed away. It's kind of an out of body expeirence when you find out someone you know has died. The first thing that runs through your head is wow is he actually gone? How could a kid so young die? Who would allow a kid this young to die? You just have all these why's fill your head. You even have second thoughts about it not being real, I mean why would you wan something like this to be real. Your mind won't let it. And then eventually it will hit you that he's gone and it's overwhelming. Can you tell that I've gone through quite a few deaths in my life? Truth be told my step father died, and we were pretty close, closer than me and my actual father. I was completely devastated, and I still am. I think about him everyday. I don't understand why some of the best people in life have to die, but the good thing out of it is that they're going to a better place. I mean what else do I have to believe, I can only help for the best for the people that leave this world. There has to be something better out there; A place where no one hurts, feels pain, or cries. There has to be a place of complete happiness I truely believe that!
I dedicate this post to Tyler Toll and all his loved ones! And also to every person who has ever lost somebody so precious to them!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Blog About Bloging About Bloging
Yesterday we were asked to blog about blogging. What we may or may not like about blogging? Why we blog? What bloging actually means? What we think about blogging? And how things are different now then when we first started blogging? So I guess I will start with the first question and work my way through, maybe you can get to know me even just a little bit more through my answers.
Personally as a person I love to blog. Before I was told to blog for my class however I did not. Not cause I didn't want to blog or anything but because I didn't really know anything about it or how to even set it up.When we were given the assignment to start blogging however I was not dissapointed or angry about it. I welcomed the opportunity to blog and have like my own online journal. I have always been one to love any type of writing whether in school or on my own. Writing is who I am, and if we didn't have words we wouldn't have anything at all. So all in all I thought that blogging was a tremendous idea, especially for me. I rather write all my feelings and thoughts onto the internet into my own little blog rather sit around and writing in a journal or diary.
The reason why we blog, or what I've gotten out of it, is so that we build up our writing skills. And maybe use bigger words, you know broaden our horizons. And I would have to agree that blogging has helped me to type faster and to increase the amounts or harder words that use. I personally blog to put how I feel out there and show my love for poetry and writing. Blogging has been such a positive expeirence for me.
What does blogging mean? The definition answer for it is: "an online diary; a personal chronological log of thoughts published on a web page." Blogs are typically updated daily; and they usually reflect the personality of the blogger. A lot of people, in their blogs, post personal expeirences about themselves and sometimes even their favorite hobbies.
I think blogging is a good idea. It gives us kids and even adults a chance to say what ever you need to say or get out whatever emotion you need to get out. You can right whatever you want to and no one can really critisize you for it because they don't know you. You can tell the whole world about whatever you want and you know that it's all going to be okay. It's harder to tell someone you know something, than rather someone you don't know. Well at least in my opinion.
When I first started blogging I really didn't know what to expect or how much information about myself I should give out. And I didn't really get the whole idea of blogging, I didn't think that I should tell anybody about myself because I thought that somehow it would get back to me. You know what though, as I went along blogging I knew that I didn't have to talk about myself directly but that people could find out what kind of person I was through my writing and how I took my approaches and different topics. People can really see the true you through your writings and your beliefs!
Personally as a person I love to blog. Before I was told to blog for my class however I did not. Not cause I didn't want to blog or anything but because I didn't really know anything about it or how to even set it up.When we were given the assignment to start blogging however I was not dissapointed or angry about it. I welcomed the opportunity to blog and have like my own online journal. I have always been one to love any type of writing whether in school or on my own. Writing is who I am, and if we didn't have words we wouldn't have anything at all. So all in all I thought that blogging was a tremendous idea, especially for me. I rather write all my feelings and thoughts onto the internet into my own little blog rather sit around and writing in a journal or diary.
The reason why we blog, or what I've gotten out of it, is so that we build up our writing skills. And maybe use bigger words, you know broaden our horizons. And I would have to agree that blogging has helped me to type faster and to increase the amounts or harder words that use. I personally blog to put how I feel out there and show my love for poetry and writing. Blogging has been such a positive expeirence for me.
What does blogging mean? The definition answer for it is: "an online diary; a personal chronological log of thoughts published on a web page." Blogs are typically updated daily; and they usually reflect the personality of the blogger. A lot of people, in their blogs, post personal expeirences about themselves and sometimes even their favorite hobbies.
I think blogging is a good idea. It gives us kids and even adults a chance to say what ever you need to say or get out whatever emotion you need to get out. You can right whatever you want to and no one can really critisize you for it because they don't know you. You can tell the whole world about whatever you want and you know that it's all going to be okay. It's harder to tell someone you know something, than rather someone you don't know. Well at least in my opinion.
When I first started blogging I really didn't know what to expect or how much information about myself I should give out. And I didn't really get the whole idea of blogging, I didn't think that I should tell anybody about myself because I thought that somehow it would get back to me. You know what though, as I went along blogging I knew that I didn't have to talk about myself directly but that people could find out what kind of person I was through my writing and how I took my approaches and different topics. People can really see the true you through your writings and your beliefs!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
So Sick
It's been a moment since I've writen but I've had quite a bit of stuff going down in my. Have you ever woke up one morning and you feel like a new person , like everything around you is changing not neccessarily for the bad nor the good, but you get the feeling that things are going to be different from that momet on. Well about two weeks ago this happened to me. I felt like a new person like something new came over me. For the longest time I have been, I guess you could say trying to be something I'm not and I've been trying to get back to the true me. And the other day I woke up and I felt like that perso again, the person I once was and I have even been acting like her. And I have been super proud that I found that girl in me again. I'm sure everybody can relate.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Three Days: Party Time
This is the second day to my three days blog entry. In my love dies entry, you got to see the sad not so happy part of me. These three days represent three different me's or different parts of me at least. At first I was extremely sad, then I decided to get rid of the sadness and anger by partying, because we all know partying solves everyones problems. And yes that may be true, but t's only true the night that your partying, because lets face it you have to wake up the next day when it's not a party and feel all the problems that you had before, heck sometimes it's even worse. sometimes you get a hang-over on top of it and you did, and said something stupid the night before. Something so stupid that you have more problems then before you started partying. Anyway In order to bring the "happy me" back and drownded myself in friends because friends are truely my life support, I have so many that would have my back in a life or death situation and that's good to know. So today there won't be any sad depressing love poems, there will be happiness renewed poems. They will be poems about friends and well happiness.
~A Friend is Like A Flower: A friend is like a flower,a rose to be exact,Or maybe like a brand new gatethat never comes unlatched.A friend is like an owl,both beautiful and wise.Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost,whose spirit never dies.A friend is like a heart that goesstrong until the end.Where would we be in this worldif we didn't have a friend. - By Emma Guest
~Friends: As we walk our path of life,We meet people everyday.Most are simply met by chance.But, some are sent our way. These become special friendsWhose bond we can't explain;The ones who understand usAnd share our joy and pain. Their love contains no boundaries.So, even we are apart.Their presence enhances usWith a warmth felt in the heart. This love becomes a passageway,When even the miles disappear.And so, these friends, God sends our way,Remain forever near.
~A Special Friend: You've touched my heart,You've helped me through,My pain and sorrow,which weren't too few. You shared my smiles,and my tears.You were always there,to squelch my fears. To you my friend and confidant,I give my heart of love,My smiles of laughter,and the hope that,We will remain friends,forever and after.Cherished Friends God must have know there would be times we'd need a word of cheer,Someone to praise a triumph or brush away a tear.He must have known we'd need to share the joy of "little things"In order to appreciate the happiness life brings.I think He knew our troubled hearts would sometimes throb with pain,At trials and misfortunes, or goals we can't attain.He knew we'd need the comfort of an understanding heartTo give us strength and courage to make a fresh, new start.He knew we'd need companionship, unselfish....lasting....true,And so God answered the heart's great need with Cherished Friends....like you!!
And there we are with three very special poems! Special friendship poems I should say. In my life friends truely are everything, if I didn't have them I would have nothing!
Three Days: Love Dies
It's been quite awhile since I've written, and truth be told it's because I got a writers block. And I took some time off of school in which I probably shouldn't have. I guess I needed the time to think, to think about lots of things. Things such as what I want to do with my life, and where am I going with my life. And just a week ago I thought I had everything finally figured out in my life and I was set to go. But then a wrench was thrown into my gears, actually I wouldn't even call it a wrench more like a hammer. A huge hammer like 30 hammers, but anyway that's besides the point. The point is my life changed dramatically and now I'm back at the chalkboards, once again trying to reconstruct my life. It seems like I've been here so many times before. This time was different though, this time I actually felt like I had my life planned and figured out, I had never really had it that way to the exact before! And it was the most wonderful feeling for awhile, but lets just say it died. And I understand that life doesn't always go according to plan, that you can't always get what you want, and life is unfair; but for once I would have liked things to have worked out in my favor. My title represents three different types of days I'll be talking about, with three very different emotions being implicated. My title goes along with what I previously stated above.
Today I will be putting a couple sad poems in here and a couple sad quoted in here. And yes they will have to do with love, and failing love. Overall the work that I put in here today isn't going to be very happy, at least this day that's represented in my title.
~Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,How you felt around me? The memories we shared,And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.You were a special part of my life that I will never forget, A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so,After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,You and I had something special and that will never change,Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,And this is something I will always regret until my dying day. By: Tara Kay
~I once heard a story straight from the heartAbout a girl and how her world began to fall apartIt all started when she met the boy that made her life completeJust thinking of him made her heart skip a beatThey were the couple everyone wanted to beThere were no imperfections as either one could seeAs the weeks passed they fell more in love and were less awareOf how often life turns out to be unfairUntil one day she finally gave inShe realized there was no way she could winShe said I'm sorry but i have to let you goAs he reached for her hand she pulled away whispering noWhen she turned around a tear slid down her cheekHe just stood there speechless, forgetting how to speakThe next few days were the hardest at homeShe truly felt she was all aloneHer mom pushed in her face how she had wonHer dad said "i knew he was just another one"Her sister said "come on you'll be ok"And her brother just tried to stay awayAt school it was like her friends weren't even thereNone of them seemed to really careHer life had no more color, just black and whiteEven getting out of bed turned into a fightDespite their tries things just weren't like beforeThen he decided "i don't wanna try anymore"At that she tried to cut him outBut the more she ignored him the more her feelings began to shoutWhen she saw him that day she could no longer just walk byAnd before she knew it her mouth opened up and out came "hi"He looked up and said "so now we're talking?"She just smiled and join his walkingEveryday they talked a little moreAnd everyday she began to like him a little less then beforeAs the months passed by she became more and more awareAbout how its ok life's unfairBecause eventually everything becomes your pastBut your memories will always lastAnd with that i hope you seeNot all love is meant to beBut hold on and don't give inStand tall, hold up your chinAnd believe me when i sayThe right one will come one dayHe'll open your eyes to things you couldn't ever seeI know this because..this is a story all about me... By: IAmWhoIAm
~I looked into her eyesI got lost in their depthA glance into the futureRevealing the secrets she keptFor so many years she cared tooYet we were both afraid to sayWe avoided each other completely...Every time, simply another dayShe cried to me one night.~Please help, I don't know what to do~I wrapped my arms around her body.~It is okay now, I'm here with you~She told me about her boyfriend,He cheated, and hurt her bad...I told her not to worry...But in the inside I was getting mad.I held back my anger...And I comforted her instead.Playing with her hair,She lay still on my bed.I leaned over to kiss her cheek,She smiled and turned to me.~Thank you for being there...I Have finally learned to see~With that she drifted off,I left her quietly sleeping.~How could anyone want to hurt her? ~I ran through thoughts, my heart leaping.I met up with her boyfriend,Swung out of pure love and rage.A knife stabbed through my stomach..~God where were you today?~My head smacking onto the pavement,My breath getting thin...My vision blurred and fading slowly...This was a battle I could never win.As this darkness consumes me...Light fills my eyes...I am proud to have lost my life,If it meant ending her cries... By: Tyler Mac Donald
These poems are truely very sad love poems, but that is exactly what I was looking for. These three poets did an extremely good job and should be recognized for it. I truely do appresiate a good poet. Poetry has always been a huge part of my life. I really get to express the words on paper that I cannot say aloud and that means a lot to me. And I'm sure these poets feel the exact same way.
Today I will be putting a couple sad poems in here and a couple sad quoted in here. And yes they will have to do with love, and failing love. Overall the work that I put in here today isn't going to be very happy, at least this day that's represented in my title.
~Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,How you felt around me? The memories we shared,And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.You were a special part of my life that I will never forget, A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so,After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,You and I had something special and that will never change,Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,And this is something I will always regret until my dying day. By: Tara Kay
~I once heard a story straight from the heartAbout a girl and how her world began to fall apartIt all started when she met the boy that made her life completeJust thinking of him made her heart skip a beatThey were the couple everyone wanted to beThere were no imperfections as either one could seeAs the weeks passed they fell more in love and were less awareOf how often life turns out to be unfairUntil one day she finally gave inShe realized there was no way she could winShe said I'm sorry but i have to let you goAs he reached for her hand she pulled away whispering noWhen she turned around a tear slid down her cheekHe just stood there speechless, forgetting how to speakThe next few days were the hardest at homeShe truly felt she was all aloneHer mom pushed in her face how she had wonHer dad said "i knew he was just another one"Her sister said "come on you'll be ok"And her brother just tried to stay awayAt school it was like her friends weren't even thereNone of them seemed to really careHer life had no more color, just black and whiteEven getting out of bed turned into a fightDespite their tries things just weren't like beforeThen he decided "i don't wanna try anymore"At that she tried to cut him outBut the more she ignored him the more her feelings began to shoutWhen she saw him that day she could no longer just walk byAnd before she knew it her mouth opened up and out came "hi"He looked up and said "so now we're talking?"She just smiled and join his walkingEveryday they talked a little moreAnd everyday she began to like him a little less then beforeAs the months passed by she became more and more awareAbout how its ok life's unfairBecause eventually everything becomes your pastBut your memories will always lastAnd with that i hope you seeNot all love is meant to beBut hold on and don't give inStand tall, hold up your chinAnd believe me when i sayThe right one will come one dayHe'll open your eyes to things you couldn't ever seeI know this because..this is a story all about me... By: IAmWhoIAm
~I looked into her eyesI got lost in their depthA glance into the futureRevealing the secrets she keptFor so many years she cared tooYet we were both afraid to sayWe avoided each other completely...Every time, simply another dayShe cried to me one night.~Please help, I don't know what to do~I wrapped my arms around her body.~It is okay now, I'm here with you~She told me about her boyfriend,He cheated, and hurt her bad...I told her not to worry...But in the inside I was getting mad.I held back my anger...And I comforted her instead.Playing with her hair,She lay still on my bed.I leaned over to kiss her cheek,She smiled and turned to me.~Thank you for being there...I Have finally learned to see~With that she drifted off,I left her quietly sleeping.~How could anyone want to hurt her? ~I ran through thoughts, my heart leaping.I met up with her boyfriend,Swung out of pure love and rage.A knife stabbed through my stomach..~God where were you today?~My head smacking onto the pavement,My breath getting thin...My vision blurred and fading slowly...This was a battle I could never win.As this darkness consumes me...Light fills my eyes...I am proud to have lost my life,If it meant ending her cries... By: Tyler Mac Donald
These poems are truely very sad love poems, but that is exactly what I was looking for. These three poets did an extremely good job and should be recognized for it. I truely do appresiate a good poet. Poetry has always been a huge part of my life. I really get to express the words on paper that I cannot say aloud and that means a lot to me. And I'm sure these poets feel the exact same way.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
One Very Looong Sick Day
It's been a few days since I've written in here due to the fact that I haven't exactly been the healthiest girl lately. I've been pretty sick with the weather being how it is in all. And with me having a full time job and trying to stick with school, it's all really hard. School is my number one responsibility but I haven't been there much do to being sick, so yea not fun! Anyway I really enjoyed posting winter poems in here last week that I thought I'd continue with the theme, considering Christmas is in two days. Yea i'm sitting in school and it's Christmas Eve tomorrow, nice. I think that, that is rediculous! We should not be in school at this time but whatever it's not my choice, unfortunetly!
Anyway I'm super excited for Christmas! I've been waiting for it to roll around since Turkey Day got over! I hate the fact that people have lost the true meaning of Christmas though. People go out and buy there friends and family gift cards because they don't know what to get them, that is pretty sad in my opinion or even parents just let their children pick out their presents these days. They take them to the store and their like "pick out presents kids." Who does that? People think Christmas is all about presents theses days, but it shouldn't be that way. Christmas is a time when people come together to celebrate. In some cases, and for me and my family, we come together to celebrate Jesus's birthday. Well I'm going to leave you with those parting thoughts but I will be back!
Anyway I'm super excited for Christmas! I've been waiting for it to roll around since Turkey Day got over! I hate the fact that people have lost the true meaning of Christmas though. People go out and buy there friends and family gift cards because they don't know what to get them, that is pretty sad in my opinion or even parents just let their children pick out their presents these days. They take them to the store and their like "pick out presents kids." Who does that? People think Christmas is all about presents theses days, but it shouldn't be that way. Christmas is a time when people come together to celebrate. In some cases, and for me and my family, we come together to celebrate Jesus's birthday. Well I'm going to leave you with those parting thoughts but I will be back!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
To New Viewers This Is For You!
If there are new viewers that are checking out my blog I would like to give you a little update on what my blog is about and the contents of it. First of all I'll give you a little background information. Since I can remember I have loved to write and draw! I especially loved to write and read poems, it has always been a favorite of mine. And when I got to highschool I doubled up in my Language arts classes every year, because I wanted to get as much knowledge about writting as I could. It is actually what I am going to try and major in, in some sort of manner. So what I did for you here, with my blog, is I brought together an abundance of quotes and poems that I have found throughout time that I have really enjoyed. And I have hoped that you would enjoy them with me. I tend to put poems and quotes in here that relate to how I feel that day. Sometimes I will put quotes in here about or relating to the weather. Just recently I added poems about Christmas, family, and snow. Those happen to be my life right now, and what's going on in it. I do ask that if you want to comment please go ahead, I love to hear from people. I like to hear suggestions and if you have a poem or quote that you want me to put in here just leave it for me under my comments and leave a name I can put it under. I want to be able to give you guys recognition for your work! Anyway today I'm going to show you guys a little bit about what I do, so I'm going to add a few poems and a few quotes in here for you.
* I Close My Eyes
"I close my Eyes and try to imagine if, after so much pain, I could abandon my love for you
and live my life again...all that comes to mind is a memory of you promising never to leave...I look up and see you waving at me...I turn away and I close my Eyes once again..."
* In The End
"I thought I was Safe After so much disappointment there's just no fun in being pessimistic I thought I could Keep them close with my charmingpersonality...Not so I always planned ahead imagining obstacles but never realizing the damage they could cause People come and people Go not understanding the Havoc that results in my mind I thought I couldhang on...thought I could be special to Somebody and have them be special to me I thought they would stay for me but Everybody goes Away in the End..."
* Say Goodbye
"You've finally left, but I never thought it would happen We used to be so Close What happened I don't even know why you left I've been denyingit for a long time, but now I realize that you're gone forever and there is no reason to cling to the hope that you'll come back...I'll miss your companionship and love, but it's time to get on with my life and say goodbye..."
* Laughing Alone
"I know now that I have always been alone... I laugh at my former faith in the saying "friends are forever"... As I trudge through this desert of a life friends and companions seem to be hands materializing out of nothingness... their sole purpose being to offer me a small cup of water, a bit of shade, and a smattering of physical contact letting me know that though I walk alone others do exist Laughter usually denotes happiness or joy- I laugh because there are too many things to cry about... I cease my cackling for a moment because a thought, too vivid for emotion comes to mind 5 billion people on this planet and yetI tread through this weary existence alone...I lick the tears from my lips as I laugh again...hysterical-and alone..."
Okay so here are some poems by Nat J. Yea they are a little sad and depressing, but I just wanted to give you guys a little tase of the text that will be in my blog. And somedays you'll get poems and quotes that are sad like this because that's just how I feel.
* I Close My Eyes
"I close my Eyes and try to imagine if, after so much pain, I could abandon my love for you
and live my life again...all that comes to mind is a memory of you promising never to leave...I look up and see you waving at me...I turn away and I close my Eyes once again..."
* In The End
"I thought I was Safe After so much disappointment there's just no fun in being pessimistic I thought I could Keep them close with my charmingpersonality...Not so I always planned ahead imagining obstacles but never realizing the damage they could cause People come and people Go not understanding the Havoc that results in my mind I thought I couldhang on...thought I could be special to Somebody and have them be special to me I thought they would stay for me but Everybody goes Away in the End..."
* Say Goodbye
"You've finally left, but I never thought it would happen We used to be so Close What happened I don't even know why you left I've been denyingit for a long time, but now I realize that you're gone forever and there is no reason to cling to the hope that you'll come back...I'll miss your companionship and love, but it's time to get on with my life and say goodbye..."
* Laughing Alone
"I know now that I have always been alone... I laugh at my former faith in the saying "friends are forever"... As I trudge through this desert of a life friends and companions seem to be hands materializing out of nothingness... their sole purpose being to offer me a small cup of water, a bit of shade, and a smattering of physical contact letting me know that though I walk alone others do exist Laughter usually denotes happiness or joy- I laugh because there are too many things to cry about... I cease my cackling for a moment because a thought, too vivid for emotion comes to mind 5 billion people on this planet and yetI tread through this weary existence alone...I lick the tears from my lips as I laugh again...hysterical-and alone..."
Okay so here are some poems by Nat J. Yea they are a little sad and depressing, but I just wanted to give you guys a little tase of the text that will be in my blog. And somedays you'll get poems and quotes that are sad like this because that's just how I feel.
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